As I embrace my new journey or life; I sometimes find myself wondering. I wonder about the choices we have and the decisions we make. Are those the right ones? what if? How could I? etc. etc. I have always been the kind that think too much; perhaps analyze too much too and for that reason I tend to doubt myself and sometimes even question myself. I wish that every single decision I made don’t affect or hurt anyone, and feel confident that it always the best, or the right one to make. I sometimes think that just may be alright to question and to wonder; that’s probably better than being impulsive and just going “for it” without any thoughts into it. Our minds can play such games sometimes. How do we prevent it for making us feel its winning over us or that perhaps giving up to it is not a bad thing.
I’m on a very happy moment right now; things are going quiet well I must say, I’m currently in a fresh, young relationship where it feels like every day is a blessing and I should be totally grateful for that, and I am! However, there are times where the mind, again, play us and it’s like want to test us and play this game that happiness is never fully there, that perhaps, we should feel that we need to constantly work for it, constantly not forgetting why we have it or deserve it. It is like now that you have what you wanted; you still need to do more to keep it.
This may not sound as positive as I thought would be, but I have everything going well for me; I’m enjoy life, work, new adventures, and learning something every day which bring the excitement to my life. I just wish the thoughts sometimes would cease and let me just enjoy thoroughly what I have and have worked for so much.
As I mentioned above, things are going well for me right now. I’m super happy and excited. I’m looking forward to a couple of getting away trips #bb and I have planned. It was always been a dream of mine to travel more and learn more about people. I have done it a few times on the past and I have always feel jealous of the adventures people grab about. But I have never given up the dream of being able to travel more and finally I feel that I’m getting that accomplish.
I also feel that I’m getting closer to some other dreams that I will post more about them here later. But it’s always a nice feeling to feel that life is moving forward; that even though it is at a very slow pace that the one I wish for, I least I do not feel stuck or that time is being wasted.